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7月24日 be on job for two weeksNow I am on the job of sinosteel, named 中国钢铁,a new IPO of our company . I am here for additional work on some key areas ,where our partner is not comfort, such as reconciliation, control , which will last about 2 weeks.
The work is not that heavy, but the problem is the distance. While I lived in the 3rd round of southeast but the working place is in 3rd round of northwest . I nearly paid RMB 130 every day, which is a damn occupation of my cash flow.
Life is going on and I am alright. Thank u all~ 7月23日 find a excuse to hide inReally turned down by the result this weekend, no passion , just wanted to stay at home, did not want to eat and kept on watching movies. Maybe I may let myself not thinking about it ,but I can’t escape my feelings. I know I care about it .
So I decide to let my writing reassessed, although I will throw a lot of money ,about RMB 950. I believe my writing can absolutely get the level. On doing this not mean that I put my hope on it , I do not expect on doing so will change anything, it is a way just to let me feel better, the feeling of being treated equally and the right of raising disagreement. No matter if it will make use, but give me some hope.
If after 8 weeks the result is no change , I may already not care about it that time. Anyway , I decide to go .
PS :I have decided to go abroad to study language first on mid Nov., no matter my results is.
Maybe it is a excuse to let myself hide in, maybe. 7月20日 disappointedToday is the last day of my half year review and the results of IELS came out which is earlier than my suppose. I am so disappointed staring at the screen and tears came out. My writing marks is still not hit my required level. Get stuck by the writing , every other aspect is ok but the writing? Why? I am hard working, I use a lot of fabulous words in the passage, my idea is clear. Why the result is still there, not even a tiny improve ? Losing my confidence, really. My writing is that bad? Even after my effort and still no improve? The fact is there and the marks is true, no one can change . I have to accept all but what should I do next? Go to examine again? No, I am afraid of it. May be the totally change need more time and working ,not a whiles' effort or put hope on any damn luck. I am always the person without luck. The way in front of me is to go out to the language centre or get the required mark here, which may not be that possible if not resign my job. If I resigned my job and prepare my English, what about the possibility that I may not pass again or any trouble in the visa ? Maybe I should choose the first one? It is my fate, just accept it. 7月2日 dark before dawn~This week we get on the job of BOC beijing branch, restart our battle , again!
My final test of IELS is conming at this weekend as well. Maybe I should choose some cycle of job I am familiar, such as OAOL ,expence , credit, but I choose the cycle of treasury --which is more difficulty to me than the others.Although it made me feel more stress but the point is that it is my choice !
Now I am thinking , IELS test is not the definitely thing I want, it is just a way u should pass .English improvement will be a long run and only the test may not be enough. I should not keen on that result,because it is only a result! If not psaaed , I will learn it in Melbourne. Really ,not that matter.
I love my job so I wanna to do it well . Test is coming but I never give up! |
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