yesterday is dragon boat festival but there isn't any festival atmosphear in beijing except the the crowded shopping people in the supermarket.  I bought some pyramid-shaped dumpling of meat but not taste so good~ After shower I went to bed so early , which is about 10, and quickly fell in asleep. So tired these days~really~

 

what is more , my fighting with the allergy is still going on ,applying some medicine on my skin , having pills and scratching on that. What a suffer and this made me so fidget.:(  I am thinking that,  there must be some bad QI in my body and as they wanna go  out so they represent in the form of allergy . After the abscess and as they all come down , i will be ok that time .

 

just keep on going~

Don't know what kind of thing i am sensitive to , but , i am allergic again.

 

The kind of tiny red point made me itches which i can't help scratching  and then they becam abscess and a little prickled.

 

The  medical shop assistant said that ,it is because of high-pressure, anxiety, worry or hard work ,which all made the body's natural resistance to disease redused as a consequence.

 

I will keeping on have related medicine ,hoping be well soon. if such pain is the additional cost i should pay to my IELTS exam maybe i would endure.

 

 

 

 

This morning i woke up so early because of the ring of my honey's message : I am on the train , as soon as i get to the place i will message u ,dear" .  Do't know why but just that time i feel so lonely and can't stop tearing.  Every time when i back to beijing , the strong feeling of lonely will be keeping for a long time . U always tell yourself u are happy and not lonely but suddenly some time u can't fake  . You can't avoid ur lonely , u have to face ur true emotion.

 

Every thing fill in the life is working .The other entertainments u do it alone ,such as watching movie, reading, shopping and listening music.There is no lover , no family and no friends by ur side.  Meeting friends can't be so often ,cause we all busy and far living, so every appointment of my dear girls is rare and rememberable.

 

I am a person who like having my own space , so I chose to share the apartment with a girl  that I am not familar . As not having a parlor of my apartmet but two big living rooms , we actually live in our own of rare communication.  I get what I want -my own space but the same time get the feeling of lonely . If giving me another chance to chose , maybe I will live with my good friends which will be better for a girl earning a living in beijing , just not be that lonely.

 

what about guys? The key point is that I have boyfriend, so the dating with any guy should be avoided , including any one like me or just friends. I always feel guilty when going out with guys although just nothing . I would like the relationship to be clear and do  not have any indeterminably vague nature thing and avoid incluing in any of them.  So , when my boyfriend is not by my side , my lonely is steady there.

 

The strong feeling of  lonely not always keeping long . As time goes, I will be used to the single lonely life and enjoy myself. On thinking that , I stop crying . Bad mood will be passed by the time.

 

 

when women are in a relationship , they become very sensitive and asking for a lot ,such as care, understanding ,needing to pour out her trouble and the feeling of safe. But man's is not that much on a long keeping relationship , except the physical needing what they want is peacefull and no trouble.

 

The other points , such as beautiful,sweety, softly ,some time childlike and some time mother like , that all women will get one and another which let the man love u . But all the above points is only make the man fall in love with u but not the reason they will keeping the relationship with u .

 

man wish the girl friend to be happy and the key point is not a trouble. The trouble thing means eveytime on u is all filled with quarrel, angry, tears, and something bothered. At the beginning maybe they will endure , when time goes ,on  one day they will collapse and give up the relationship and went to the other women's more softly arms.

 

the problem to us is how we keeping the relation?

 

firstly, U should not rely on him too much . have ur work ,ur friends and ur interast which means do not put all ur life on him . An old saying goes: hope more and disappoint adds. On that way , u will find ur life more various ,not always asking for and be happier.

 

secondly, the problem can not be settled by quarrel . Have a talk and let him know what u need . Remember to give him praise when he do better , everybody wana to be noted if they realy do something. Some time  man is like a child  who need praise more than blame.

 

some time quarrel can't be avoided especially during women's special days .The mood is so bad and more easy to be discontent and feel more lonely . u can let him know , made him more understood ur bad temper and u two won't care about the complainments women made.

 

at last,just be simple. Do not think about how the relation ship will goes on too much . think more ,worry more and happy less. some time the problem is there , if u keen on thinking it  the problem will enlarge and occupy ur heart which made no place for the happy thing. Some time such problem u have already comunicated with him but u think it is such an obstacle between u ,maybe u two can't conquer it and may one day break up on that. U think on this more and u will be more worried and lose hope. Some time u just need to left the problem aside ,if u don't think it is a problem and it is

not.

 

 

sb sayed my english is awesome. He say awesome is really good but i think the meaning is poor. No matter what the other people's judge ,I will still persist in updating in english ! Just because of my poor english which i realised , so i need to use it .

 

yesterday I had lunch with zouzou ,my wonderful classmates and workmates. We talked a lot on love and relationaship. During our talk, there is a concern interest me is wheather we will re-get into a relationship with our ex GF or BF?The answer is no .

 

if the two once have a relationship and finally broke up, there must be some problem for the two in being together. Something keeping in their mind is every point they are not fit , although some time they will pick up some sweet memories.

 

then , the main problem is that u know each other well and u even know what's the feeling u being together  ,besides the feeling of happies and quarrel . Too familiar , no surprise and no expect . the only left for u is to dealing with the problem u already konw .

 

I think every thing has its own capacity , once used up and it will never be lighted up again, except u two not only have new love spark but also make ur effort to add fuel to the relationship.

 

 

it is so bad that i have a new tooth decayed , just recently.

 

there is a little hole in my back tooth ,i can not feel it by using my tongue as the hole is so little. But it suffers u the agonies toothache when u chew sth using that side.

 

Maybe ,this is because of my bad habit of can't helping eating sweety or cookies after tooth cleaning . I know the habit is hamfull to the tooth but I still can't drop it.

 

my poor tooth ~i can't eat on that side. suddenly I realised that if i always use one side to chew the side of my face will soon be bigger than the other which is worse than the toothache. so ,i decide to have my bad tooth fixed when i have time . It is a trouble thing~ Sigh

Everyday's bus trip to work is a suffering which is congested and wobbling! if  u are lucky enough , the one sit beside u get off soon and u can have ur feet wearing high-heel shoe a little break .

 

Not that often I am choosen the lucky girl but this morning was .By sitting there i can't help observing the ones aroud me ~

 

A women , another women and another women ......But the problem is  how old are they? I can't tell. Maybe 27? but what about 31? it ok. maybe she is 25? I am not sure for all their age? how old are they ?

 

u judging from their face, but the 31 women may have velvet skin like 27 and the 25 girl who have trouble with coarse skin may look like 29. How can I judge a women's age?

 

judging from their wearing? but office women always have the same type of dressing. I can't tell by this .

 

I finally give up . it is so hard for giving a woman's real age, just like win a prize in a lottery ~

 

But I still wondering, how they think how old I am ? The time I gussing theirs maybe the same time they have the same confuse on me ?

 

 

 

the time for my IELS test is so limited and I have not prapared ready for it ~my writting is so poor, I only can use very familiar words and this leval is about 5 marks which is not enough for me .

 

from now on ,I will write in english in my space ,just for practice. u guys don't need to add any comments , but if u do ,it is so sweet of u.

 

next week i am on the job of BOC AR, which means analytical review. the problem is why is me? so many people idle but why is me ? I am bothered about my english which time is limited  and just when I finally happy getting out from MCC but knowing that  I am the same time be booked on another job . Anyway, so lucky that it is just one week. God bless there will not be so many thing to deal with.

 

I don't like the pressure  examine gives. It just like some one holding ur neck and made u breath hard.

 

anyway, do not make any more complainment, just make ur effort wuich will finally make use!

 

邯郸，转眼，一个月已经过去。

 

面对过成堆成堆的报表总帐还有pbc，怀念和lilian 每天聊天走过的林荫小路，想起饭桌上大家的欢声笑语，还有一个一个熟悉可爱的面容......

 

每到离别时，都那么依依不舍。想念你们，邯郸team的每位战友~

 

 

 

 

上周末home trip了一趟。远准备趁他在国内的这段间隔期，开始他在中国大区3个月的旅行，走之前来北京看看我。顺便他的小说，已经写了14万字了，一路修改寻找灵感，争取年底之前就能完成，以我们为原型的小说。我也为他加油！加油亲爱的！

 

在回北京之前，心情一直很低落，总觉得很多事情和他都很不如意，很觉得他照顾不够啊，不够理解我。下定决心想这回见面要好好探讨一下，但真的见面以后，却又觉得好像什么都不用了......谈到年底去澳洲，看得到他眼神里的关爱还有话语中的担心，一起过马路走路时他会不自觉的保护，会给我买的我最爱的牛奶，水果，点我最爱的菜......他的爱，无处不在。

 

我已经很幸福了，还要在挑剔什么呢？觉得自己之前也很不懂事，很多争吵也是我自己挑起的，我又了解他多少呢？他希望我不要去瞎想，他希望我开开心心的~

 

恩！我要争取更懂事。

 

这回回去，我要趁idle安安心心看英语，就不上msn呢，窝在公司的某个角落，奋力学习！我的英语太差了，加油！